Now that the O's are over...

I have no idea what to do. I made a long list of things to do post-O's, but problem is I don't know where to start.
It's so cold now, it would be crazy to go to the beach. Tomorrow will be fun cause there's sleepover at JY'S and we'll be watching 17 Again.
:)

But for today time moves slowly till 12 cause I'm going shoe shopping with Kris and Eunice.

Last night was strange. I don't know what's going on between us. I don't know what to do. He asked if I would go out with him. 
Before that incident, I would have agreed. Friends what, that's what friends do, they hang out. I did agree anyway.
No harm right? I'm sure we're just friends. Nothing more, nothing less.

But I get these vibes. Which are quite confusing. I don't know if he's just playing, or he's for real.
My gut instinct screams Lee. Which is not very assuring. I don't want another Lee.
Great friend, not-so-great bf (and monstrous after we broke up).

Hannah stop thinking too much into the situation.
You both will be good friends and that's that.

I think I will do what I should have with L. Date but stay single.
Solves everything.

Russell, I'm sorry I thought you didn't deserve to be in this game because you were already rich and your intention of competing was to show how easy it was to win.

I take that all back.

Russell my man, even if you're shorter, stumpier and less *salty than Mick, I love your brains. How the heck did you find not only one, but 2 hidden immunity idols without any given clue whatsoever?
You so deserve to win. You are the only reason why Mick, Natalie and Jaison are still even in the game.
Mind blowing craziness.

Russell has taken Survivor to a totally different level.
Thank you Russell for making Survivor history. I want your autograph, seriously.

Anyway, this time I'm rooting for the underdogs.
Russell, Mick, Natalie, Jaison. I really hope Foa Foa pulls through and shows Galu that even though they've been beaten at every single challenge (but one or two), they will indeed Outwit, Outplay and Outlast.

*In Jennifer's Body, salty = hot

WARNING: Jen's Body spoilers

I nearly cried at the Sistic counter.

The malay woman said all the early bird tickets were sold out.
I said ok never mind, how about the rest of the tickets?
She said all sold out too.
I said for both Yeah Yeah Yeahs and Muse?
She said yes, all sold out.
I look at her, she look at me.

I think she figured I was about to cry so she said she was sorry that there weren't any tickets left, and she looked so sincere. All the more it made me want to cry.

Sigh. Deep breath.

I CAN NOT BELIEVE THIS.
HOW IS IT POSSIBLE TO HAVE ALL TICKETS TO BOTH CONCERTS SOLD OUT 3 MONTHS BEFORE THE CONCERT.

I really dislike you guys who actually own a ticket. If you have one, don't tell me unless you want to be stabbed by yours truly.
ie. Chelsea (who always seem to get tickets) But she doesn't read this blog so who cares.

Yeah, Incubus was awesome. Once-in-a life-time experience (since I nearly died and was saved by my Malay guardian angel with the trucker cap and black backpack and nice white loafers)

But I want more awesome once-in-a-life-times.
Am I asking for too much?

However, just to remain positive... which is pretty hard since the positive light to this situation is really small and faint:

Thank you God that this isn't Justin Timberlake's concert that's sold out. Thank you thank you thank you. Amen.

JY kicks balls real high and far. Iris swims really fast. 
I have no sporty talent :(

Anyway yesterday's day at the beach was
The sea was beautiful, the sand was hot. Beautiful people swimming in the sea, hot people sunbathing on the sand. I am in love with Sentosa beaches.
My eyes were treated rather well despite the occasional sting from salt water.

I have a weird tan line now. I might wear my bikini tomorrow to even everything out.
Don't judge.

I haven't been praying very much now. God, I have loads of things to tell you,  I know You'll understand. But sometimes I don't. I try to learn more about You but I always end up realizing that I have no clue.
  
Another thing that I don't understand are my dreams. Like yesterday, I dreamt that my parents had a divorce. I remember looking at both of them with a straight face, and all I said was: "Okay. I don't mind. But can I have custody over myself?"
Weird thing is, if that happened in real life, I'd probably do the same thing.
Not that I don't love my parents. It's just that I get really annoyed at how my dad thinks he owns my mom just because they're married.
I bet that before they got married, my mom was opinionated and smart. Now I see that her life mostly rotate around "He might not like it/ Because he said not to" and her decisions ultimately are made by dad.
I hate it.
I love my dad, but I hate how the whole marriage thing works. If that's what 'true love' does to you...

I just don't want to end up like my mom.

/edit
I'm not saying I'm against marriage. I'm just saying...
that my 'Perfect guy' (if there's even such a guy) will be everything my dad isn't. Yeah, that's it. It's not that I will never ever get married, I just don't want to marry anyone like my dad.
If I do, then it's all for the money.

Out of all the bitches, why Erik?

I still feel that they should have voted for Monica. Erik's smart. He's cocky and brash. But he's smart.
And if you're smart you'll want to bring the cocky one to the finals, because nobody would vote to give him the million bucks.

The least thing I can stand in a person is cockiness and huge egos. But somehow it works for Erik.
I liked the alliance between John and Erik, if only they were given a chance.
I'm rooting for John now, he's gorgeous. And friggin' smart. Smarter than Russell.

I'm sad. I'll miss Erik very much.